time changes everything

back in 2012. so much has changed since then.

HELLOOOOOOOO.
It has been soooo long since i've last updated. And i'm sorry. I've been so busy with so many things!!! Life's been so hectic nowadays.
I've realised that so much has changed over the past 8 months. Since 2013 started, i hadn't really been having the time of my life or anything and neither am i having the time of my life right now. It's just, I feel a lot better about myself. I feel like i should strive for the things i want. I should no longer hold back or have any set backs in life.
Well, my heart's never been cleared since the moment i came back to Cambodia. It can't be helped because i've regretted so many things that i should've done while i was in Singapore, yet i didn't do it. I've regretted it till today. But the past is the past, i won't dwell on it as much as i once did. I'll look back to those times and smile because I am thankful for what has happened. The people i've met. The time i've spent. The memories. Everything.

I've always hated myself for always easily getting attached to someone. It's like if I just get to know someone and we "click" immediately, I get attached so easily to that person. I trust that person and share almost every thing about myself with that person. In the end, what I get is mostly betrayal. They all always ended up leaving in the end and I get hurt. A part of me seems to be lost once they leave. While some just comes in and out of my life whenever they please. I don't get it. It hurts me. It hurts me knowing that I'm the only one who cares. Why are they like that? Why would they leave even though they know how hurt i'll get when they do....And most of the times, i'll be the idiot who goes chasing them back into my life. But now i've changed. I will no longer do that. If they want to enter, make sure to stay. If they don't plan on staying then I'll gladly walk away first. This is a lot easier said than done. I mean , come on, would you really leave someone that means so much to you? Yeah, every Hello comes another Good bye. It's sad, but it inescapable.

All kind of shit happens. So bare with it. You're not the only one going through though times. Remember, YOU'RE NEVER ALONE :)

The past's the past. We can't turn back time. Just like someone special had once told me "It's enough. Don't dwell on the past. It'll only hurt you more".
It reminds me so much of the times spent with that person. Special. So very special.

hehehehe :')

Anyway, this post is like sooooo emotional. My goddddddd. NO MORE NO MORE. Haha XD
It's been ages since i've last watch any anime and my gosh, life is no fun without anime!!!! D:

hahahah, okay
i don't really know what to write anymore
buhhhhhbyeeeeeeee~~