Well.....'I don't know'
An easy way to escape questions and simply the answer to questions when you're just so mother fucking unsure about yourself.
'The perks of being a wallflower'. That movie is just so inspiring and well....sad and depressing all at the same time...
And yeah, right now...I pretty much feel like dying....
.....
Exam's tomorrow and I'm here...being all depressed and shit. Feeling all shitty. Feeling so damn suicidal.
Pretending to smile is getting so so so much harder these past few days.
Going to school and smile. Then come back home and run into the toilet to cry, well, that's my routine now. I should be getting used to it but...how come I'm not.... How come I still get so affected and still give a damn about everything when I shouldn't...
Useless.
Stupid.
Idiot.
Bitch.
Insignificant.
Alone.
Broken.
Insecure.
Jealous.
Lonely.
Defeated.
Hopeless.
Lifeless.
The list just goes on and on.....
Life full of darkness.
Hopes all lost.
Motivation all gone.
Suicidal on my mind.
Getting drunk. Self-harming.
I'm just so tempted to do these but then I tell myself it wouldn't do me any good. So instead , I just sit down and throw words at myself , cry , feel all pathetic and then I'll try to pick myself up....if I can.
Haizzzzz. I shall end this post...and maybe go and bury myself in more depressing music.
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